Wednesday, 31 January 2018

An Open Letter To... My Late Uncle

Dear Uncle Ant, It's been 3 years today since I got home from work to be told you had gone. It was a Saturday evening. I remember it like it was yesterday. I remember how I had no internet on my phone so I couldn't check facebook on my way home from work like I normally would, that is something I so thankful for. By 5pm it was all over facebook that you had left us. I didn't get home until 6.

When my mum told me you had gone, I didn't believe her. How could I believe here? You were only 39. It was when I asked how you had died that it hit me. The answer was something nobody wants to hear. Suicide. You had taken your own life.

I remember going on to facebook and just seeing so many tributes to you. Everyone posting memories of you on facebook, it was nice to read so many messages about you on there.

The one thing I regret is on the Thursday before you left us you walked past my work and I didn't think to shout on you. If I knew then that that would of been the last time I ever seen you I would of shouted on you.

All I want to know is why? Why did you do it? I wish you knew how much you were loved and still are. We still laugh about some of the crazy things you did, thats what mad you who you were.

Your 40th birthday is a day I will never forget. We headed up to your headstone with some of your friends and we sat had a laugh and had a drink to celebrate with you. We set off lanterns into the sky to remember you. We ended up getting locked in the cemetery that night. I bet that made you laugh! 

I will always remember you and will love you forever. There is stories of you I will never ever forget. You were and still are one of the best bouncers this city ever had.



  1. This post is both beautiful and heartbreaking!! What a loss you have suffered! I’m always here if you need a chat!

  2. What a beautiful letter, I hope that it has helped to write that down angel!

    Love, Amie ❤
    The Curvaceous Vegan

  3. What an emotional post - I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle and the fact that he took his own life must make it so much harder on you all, not knowing why. It's strange those moments when we think about the last time we saw someone, being the last time we'll ever see them and not even knowing. It's certainly a wake up call isn't it? To cherish every moment you spend with someone.


  4. Oh beautiful, I'm super sorry to hear that you lost your uncle. This blog post really touched my heart, I'm sending so much love to you and your family. Thank you for sharing such a beautifully written, open post. πŸŒΈπŸ’œ✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x |

  5. Oh sweetie, this broke my heart to read. I’m so sorry you had to go through that ❤️ xo
    Sian |